confused……

{ June 20, 2007 @ 2:14 pm } · { _R.e.A.L.i.t.Y_ }

confused… that’s how i feel

when i think about it, it gets to me… why?? why not?? this is crap, i mean at that time i was like “no way!” but now i’m like, why didn’t i???? it’s frustrating, whenever i think about it, i thought the outcome was a good thing, but now, i feel like i’m going to miss those times, even though they (them) were terrible…

there were 4, and yet now there are none…… but 1 of them, at this moment, makes me feel that i wish that night never happend, that now he’s still here, that i should have not let him go…. shhhhhhhhh nobody knows.

he, yes he, is a really nice guy. i thought i wasn’t attracted, and yet every time we met (coincidentally before he left), i felt that annoying feeling!!!! jealousy, over the girl who dumped him(i just knew a couple of days ago that he became involved with someone else), and she, the reason of his leaving, is that source of jealousy! he should have been mine!!!! and i can’t believe i’m saying this, i miss being near him!!!!!!!

THIS SUCKZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don’t want to admit it, but i did wish that we would pass by each other everyday, “magkasabay” kumbaga, “magkatagbo” s dili oras, “magkatagbo” na wala sa plano… hmpf… i guess i’m never going to see him again.. and i am still confused with mixed feelings, if i really did want him, or if i just wanted our friendship back.. this i would never know..

Good bye

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